To end the suspense.. 12 weeks is a long time.  I’m not at 12 weeks yet, but, I wanted to journal month by month or week by week and the best thing about having a blog is that I can go back to it at anytime and see what I was up to at that time 

Of course, you’ve guessed, I’M PREGNANT.  Or, my boyfriend and I are pregnant.  That sounds silly “we’re pregnant” but there isn’t immaculate conception.

I might be 9 weeks but my periods were never regular so I’ll know more I’ll know for sure once I’ve had a dating scan.  Then my 12 week scan.  Wow

I’ve dreamed about being a Mother since I was 18.  I’d like to say I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in my life but right now everything is weird.  Being pregnant is weird.  Of course I’m happy but I’m also looking forward to second trimester when hopefully my body settles down a little… it feels like it’s been taken over.  Autopilot

Mike (bf) and I are blessed

My periods have never been regular and I’ve always been scared about my fertility.  Scared because I have my own health issues but also scared because I’ve never been pregnant before I guess.  I was overly emotional <- not uncommon, and thought it must just be PMS.  I even felt PMS cramps.  When my period didn’t come I bought a pregnancy test only because we were in the isle and at the supermarket it was a cheap test I didn’t expect anything.  I had wishful thinking.  Every time I’ve ever peed on a stick it quickly turns to negative or not pregnant.  This time, ohmigod, it was cheap and it showed a t like cross thingy.  I was sooooo happy and sooooo excited.  I went to late night chemist immediately and bought another one and drank heaps so I could pee again straight away hehe.  Positive hehehe *squee* yaaaaaaaaaay

Then I started worrying about losing it.  I was only elated for a moment I know how common miscarriage is I was TERRIFIED I AM TERRIFIED.  I try to be positive though and be as healthy as I can.

Weird changes:

• Emotional for no reason.   More so then usual.

• Needing to pee all the time

• Morning (all day!) sickness.  So nauseous! I keep eating like every hour keep something in my stomach.  That’s all I’ve found that has helped morning sickness.  Any advice from other Mothers out there?!

• Exhaustion.  I pass out as soon as I get home.  This is especially hard for me.  I can’t do the cleaning or laundry I can’t skate I can’t train at the gym I can’t study or make it to tutorials.  I can’t make it out to see my friends or even stay up later then 8pm hahaha so exhausted I know this will triple once I have my baby home maybe this is giving me a taste of things to come haha.  Hormones are weird. Zzzz

• Food preferences.  I’m listening to my body.  If I want something, I’ll eat it, especially because I’m so nauseous all dairy products make me gag right now.  All dairy apart from this gluten free choc icecream with extra calcium.  You need 2 + serves of dairy don’t you if I’m only eating the choc icecream does that equate to 2 + bowls? I think so… haha… I’ll be healthier 12 weeks and onwards and I’ll start exercising again 12 weeks on right now I’m napping and eating and napping and eating.  Work uses everything I have.

This is only the beginning.  I’m very happy this might sound like a whingy blog post but it’s 7.15pm it’s nearly my time to collapse in bed.  My boyfriend is being amazing.  We’re blessed

Edited to add: My stats

Clothing size 8/10 weight 57kgs

Now after not being so active and my eating and napping constantly.  Clothing size 10 weight 60kgs

Here are a couple photos of my tummy.  I’m not showing yet obviously but I look forward to when I do.  I don’t know if I’m bloated (happens all the time) or my uterus is swollen or who knows..  In 9 months I’ll probably look back and wish my body looked like this.. but right now this is an unflattering photo my body is changing already.  Goodbye vanity

29 Responses to “WHAT YOU’VE BEEN WAITING FOR”